A Disillusioned 99'er Shares His Disappointment With The American Dream, Welcomes Death

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"Mark", a member of the ever growing cadre of disillusioned, disenchanted and disgruntled millions of American unemployed, has written a letter shared by A Company of One, in which he explains the plight of 99'ers (those whose extended unemployment benefits are set to expire) in which he chronicles his plight and his terminal disappointment with the American system. One can only imagine how all the "99'ers" would feel if they did not have the benefit of living at least partially subsidized for 2 years in the socialist state of America. If Bahrain is any indication, where the government's attempt to purchase the love of its people just failed today, pretty soon not even the 99 weeks of EUCs will do much to suppress what is an unmistakably rising anger among the broad US population.

From Mark's letter:

To the unemployed, sick, disabled and poor:


I'm unemployed over two years now, a 99er without any benefits for
three months. I followed Unemployed Friends almost from its start, never
posted until now, but am grateful for my time with you all. I did as
asked with calls and e-mails, etc. I've a confession to make to you all.
I'm a criminal.

I've obeyed the 10 commandments and all laws except: I'm unemployed
and that's now a crime, I'm poor and that's a crime, I'm worthless
surplus population and that's a crime, I'm a main street American
Citizen born and raised in the USA and that's now a crime, and I'm
euthanizing myself as I write this note -- so arrest my corpse. This
isn't a call for help, the deed is done, it's not what I wanted. Death
is my best available option. It's not just that my bank account is $4,
that I've not eaten in a week, not because hunger pangs are agonizing
(I'm a wimp), not because I live in physical and mental anguish, not
because the landlady is banging on the door non-stop and I face
eviction, not that Congress and President have sent a strong message
they no longer help the unemployed. It's because I'm a law abiding
though worthless, long-term unemployed older man who is surplus
population. Had I used my college education to rip people off and steal
from the elderly, poor, disabled and main street Americans I would be
wearing different shoes now -- a petty king. Hard work, honesty, loving
kindness, charity and mercy, and becoming unemployed and destitute
unable to pay your bills are all considered foolishness and high crimes
in America now. Whereas stealing and lying and cheating and being greedy
to excess and destroying the fabric of America is rewarded and
protected -- even making such people petty king and petty queens among

Since the end of 2008, when corporate America began enjoying the
resumption of growth, profits have swelled from an annualized pace of
$995 billion to the current $1.66 trillion as of the end of September
2010. Over the same period, the number of non-farm jobs counted by the
Labor Department has slipped from 13.4 million to 13 million -- there is
no recovery for the unemployed and main street. We taxpayers have
handed trillions of dollars to the same bank and insurance industry that
started our economic disaster with its reckless gambling. We bailed out
General Motors. We distributed tax cuts to businesses that were
supposed to use this lubrication to expand and hire. For our dollars, we
have been rewarded with starvation, homelessness and a plague of fear
-- a testament to post-national capitalism.

Twelve years ago, I lost the last of my family. Ten years ago, I lost
the love of my life, couldn't even visit him in the hospital because
gays have no rights. I fought through and grieved and went on as best I
could. Seven years ago, I was diagnosed with Diabetes and Stage 2 high
blood pressure with various complications including kidney problems,
mild heart failure, Diabetic Retinopathy. These conditions are
debilitating and painful. I am on over eight prescribed medications,
which is very difficult without insurance and income. But I struggled on
and my primary caregiver was very pleased with my effort overtime with
my A1C at seven. Still these physical disabilities have progressively
worsened, and I have had a harder and harder time functioning in basic
ways. All the while, I give thanks to God because I know there are many
more worse off than me -- and I tried to help by giving money to
charities and smiling at people who looked down and sharing what little I

I am college educated and worked 35 years in management, receiving
written references and praise from every boss for whom I worked. Yet,
after thousands of resumes, applications, e-mails, phone calls, and drop
ins, I've failed to get a job even at McDonalds. I've discovered there
are three strikes against me -- most 99ers will understand. Strike one
-- businesses are not hiring long-term unemployed -- in fact many job
ads now underline "the unemployed need not apply." Strike two -- I am
almost 60 years old. Employers prefer hiring younger workers who demand
less and are better pack mules. Strike three -- for every job opening
I've applied, there are over 300 applicants according to each business
who allow a follow up call. With the U3 unemployment holding steady at
9.6percent and U6 at 17 percent for the past 18 months, the chances of
me or any 99er landing a job is less than winning the Mega Million
Jackpot. On top of that, even the most conservative economists admit
unemployment will not start to fall before 2012 and most predict up to
seven years of this crap.

I believe the Congress and President have no intention of really
aiding the unemployed -- due to various political reasons and their
total removal from the suffering of most Americans, their cold-hearted,
self-serving natures. Had they really wanted to help us, they could have
used unspent stimulus monies or cut foolish costs like the failed wars
or foreign aid, and farm subsidies. The unspent stimulus money alone
cold have taken care of ALL unemployed persons for five years or until
the unemployment rate reached 7 percent if Congress and the President
really wanted to help us -- and not string us all along with a meager
safety net that fails every few months. In any case, if I were to
survive homelessness (would be like winning the mega-millions) and with
those three strikes against me, in seven more years, I'll be near 70
with the new retirement age at 70 -- now who will hire an old homeless
guy out of work for nine years with just a few years until retirement?

So, here I am. Long term unemployed, older man, with chronic health
problems, now totally broke, hungry, facing eviction. My landlady should
really be an advocate for the unemployed -- she bangs on my door
demanding I take action. A phone call and a "please" are not enough for
her -- she is angry. She is right to be angry with me, I am unemployed
-- as apparently everyone is now angry with us unemployed.

Two hundred and eleven and social services cannot help single men.
Food banks and other charities are unable to help any more folks -- they
are overwhelmed with the poor in this nation. So I have the "freedom"
to be homeless and destitute and "pursue happiness" in garbage cans and
then die -- yay for America huh? It's the end of November and cold. A
diabetic homeless older person will experience amputations in the winter
months. So I will be raiding garbage cans for food, as my body
literally falls apart, a foot here, a finger there. I have experienced
and even worked with pain from my diseases -- hardship I can face. I
just cannot muster the courage to slowly die in agony and humiliation in
the gutter.

I have no family, I have no friends. For the past two years, I've had
nobody to talk with as people who knew me react to the "unemployed"
label as if it were leprosy and contagious. I am not a bad person, in
fact people really like me. But everyone seems to be on a tight budget
these days and living in incredible fear. It is hopeless since we all
are hearing more and more that we unemployed are to blame for
unemployment, that we are just lazy, that we are no good, that we are
sinners, that we are druggies, yet we are the victims who suffer and are
punished while the robber baron banksters and tycoons become senators,
congress, presidents and petty kings. So the only option left for me is
merciful self euthanasia.

It is with a heavy heart that I have set my death in motion, but what
I am facing is not living. So off I go, I have made peace with God and
placed my burden on Jesus and He forgives me. This nation has become
evil to the core, with cold-hearted politicians and tycoons squeezing
what little Main Street Americans have left. It is not the America into
which I was born -- the land of the free and the home of the brave with
kind folks who help neighbors -- it is now land of the Tycoon-haves and
the rest of us have-nots who march into hopelessness and despair.

Every unemployed person I have met over these past two years have
been saintly. Sharing what little they have, and being charitable --
being kind and patient and supportive. Isn't it amazing that we
Americans who suffer so much, have not taken to the streets in violence,
riots or gotten out the guillotines and marched on tycoons and
Washington in revolt as would happen in most other nations? But rather
we plead with deaf politicians to please help us. We don't demand huge
sums -- just 300 bucks a week, barely enough to cover housing for most.
Most of all we say, please help us get a job, please allow us dignity.

I can't help but juxtapose our plight to the tycoons and politicians.
They are never satisfied with their enormous wealth, and always want
more millions no matter whom it hurts. They STEAL from pension funds,
banks, the people and government, and little Wall Street investors. Then
rather than face punishment, they become petty kings in this world.
They are disloyal to America, unpatriotic, and serve their own foreign
UN-American greedy causes and demand more and more and more. I feel that
this is not the nation into which I was born. I was born in America,
the land of the free and the home of the brave. America, where people
give as much as they receive. America, where all people work for the
common good, and try to leave a better and more prosperous nation for
the next generation. America, where people help their neighbors and show
charity and mercy. This new America is alien to me -- it is an America
of greed and corruption and avarice and mean spirited selfishness and
hatred of the common good -- it is an America of savage beasts roaring
and tearing at the weak, and bullying the humble and peacemakers and
poor and those without means to defend themselves. I am not welcome here
anymore. I don't belong here anymore. It's as if some evil beast
controls government, the economy, and our lives now.

I must go now, my home is someplace else. Goodbye and God bless you
all. God bless the unemployed and poor and elderly and disabled. God
bless America and the American people except the tycoons and politicians
-- may God retain the sins of tycoons and politicians and phony
preachers and send them to the Devil.


h/t Mike

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Sockeye's picture

This is beyond sad. Revolution is happening, not just in Egypt.

i.knoknot's picture

sad indeed.

but there is no revolution. we've become the masters of insulation, so while the likes of mark die in their bedrooms, their neighbors (10-20 feet away) munch on burger-king and watch am-idol. oblivious.

while the pensions are virtually raided by seemingly decent folk, the elderly are figuring out how to prepare 50lb bags of dry-dogfood so that it's somewhat edible.

the insulation between act and result is so thick on all fronts, and the human brain is so disinterested and and/or incapable of managing what it all means... that it is and will continue. until, as egypt proved, the wheat stops.

if i don't see it, it must not be real. and they don't want me to see it. there is no revolution of consequence.

"could you pass the ketchup, please? and hand me the remote - thanks."

jus_lite_reading's picture

"God bless the unemployed and poor and elderly and disabled. God bless America and the American people except the tycoons and politicians -- may God retain the sins of tycoons and politicians and phony preachers and send them to the Devil."

Dr. No's picture

"You have to consider the possibility that God doesn't like you, he never wanted you."  -Tyler Durden

Azannoth's picture

Did 'God' ever consider the possibility that I don't like him and or never wanted him ?

downrodeo's picture

Did 'God' ever consider the possibility that I don't like him and or never wanted him ?


Would you care if s/he did?

LowProfile's picture

YOU are God.  Wake the fuck up!

Also, I have a hard time feeling sorry for this guy. 

If he really was that desperate, all he had to do to secure food and shelter was to track down his elected representative and bitchslap him!

Three hots and a cot, bitchez!!!

And if that's "too radical" for you, just throw a fuckin' brick through a bank window!  Jesuz H Fucking Chrizt!

asdasmos's picture

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?"

 - Epicurus

Oquities's picture

god willing, the gift of free will beats being the puppet of the omnipotent.

chopper read's picture

with the $trillions spent on 'bail outs' for insider cronies, we could have fed the unemployed steak and eggs every day for decades.  was it worth it?

‎...too bad this gentleman didn't take David Rockefeller with him before he felt he had to go.

Michael's picture

David Rockefeller confronted at Chilean Airport during vacations (ENG/SPA)


Haywood Jablowme's picture





Bartanist's picture

And what do the elitist parasites in power care about people destroying themselves to wound a few lowly IRS agents and a bit of real estate. For it to matter to them it would have to affect their selfish *sses directly. Then they might listen.

Haywood Jablowme's picture


That's what guys like me are sticking around for.  So what the fuck now?


Michael's picture

What do our elected public servants expect to happen to them when they manufacture utter hopelessness for such a large scale of our population?

20%+ unemployment. Families being foreclosed on by the millions. No hope of productive prosperous lives for millions of young people. 43+ million people on food stamps. Out of control inflation in the price of education, healthcare, food and energy, etc.

Bailouts and laws passed to benefit the rich wealthy elite and special interests. Putting we the people under a constant state of surveillance, getting the US into senseless wars killing and maiming many of our men on the battlefield and bankrupting our country chasing the boogieman.

Public servants refusing to discuss real issues of importance to many of us like the controlled demolition of building 7, Agenda 21, Codex Alimentarius, the police state feeling us up and irradiating us at airports, leaving the corporate controlled media in charge of the talking point memos and continually trying to socially engineer freedom out of our lives, etc.

Our elected servants have given the American people more than enough reasons to take matters into our own hands exacting our own form of justice because our government delivers none on our behalf. No banksters jailed for fraud and ruining our economy and our lives etc.

The French people had a unique way to deal with unruly public servants, guillotines!  It will come to guillotines and the killing of many more public servants if they don't get on the side of Main Street Americans real soon and respect our Constitution.

The American people need no more reasons, given to us by our elected servants, to take matters into our own hands. It is amazing we have been so restraind, giving them the benefit of the doubt for so long. No more. What is going to happen now has been 100% expected and there is nothing the control freak government can do about it.

What do they expect? When people lose everything and have nothing left to lose, they lose it!

snowball777's picture


Dear God,

hope you got the letter, and...

I pray

you can make it better down here.

I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer

but all the people that you made in your image,

see them starving on their feet

'cause they don't get enough to eat

from God

I can't believe in you

Dear God,

sorry to disturb you, but...

I feel that I should be heard

loud and clear.

We all need a big reduction

in amount of tears

and all the people that you made in your image,

see them fighting in the street

'cause they can't make opinions meet

about God,

I can't believe in you

Did you make disease, and the diamond blue?

Did you make mankind after we made you?

And the devil too?

Dear God,

don't know if you noticed, but...

your name is on a lot of quotes in this book,

and us crazy humans wrote it,

you should take a look,

and all the people that you made in your image

still believing that junk is true.

Well I know it ain't,

and so do you,

Dear God,

I can't believe in

I don't believe in

I won't believe

in heaven and hell.

No saints, no sinners,

no devil as well.

No pearly gates, no thorny crown.

You're always letting us humans down.

The wars you bring,

the babes you drown.

Those lost at sea and never found,

and it's the same the whole world 'round.

The hurt I see

helps to compound

that Father, Son and Holy Ghost

is just somebody's unholy hoax,

and if you're up there

you'd perceive

that my heart's here upon my sleeve.

If there's one thing I don't believe in

It's you. Dear God!

asdasmos's picture

"Blind faith is an ironic gift to return to the Creator of human intelligence."

– Anonymous

Hugh_Jorgan's picture

More regurgitation, eh? You might want to take some time off to learn something about yourself and the world. Come back when you have something of your own to say.


BTW, sorry about taking up your whole evening.

asdasmos's picture

"When one person suffers from a delusion, it is called insanity. When many people suffer from a delusion it is called religion"

– Robert Pirsig


I can go all day.

asdasmos's picture

"I contend that we are both atheists. I just believe in one fewer god than you do. When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours."

Hugh_Jorgan's picture

Love that bravado-laced circular reasoning. Secular Humanism; the red Kool-Aid of philisophcal worldviews. I was on your path once, I hope you enjoy your emptiness, my friend.

asdasmos's picture

"If I were not an atheist, I would believe in a God who would choose to save people on the basis of the totality of their lives and not the pattern of their words. I think he would prefer an honest and righteous atheist to a TV preacher whose every word is God, God, God, and whose every deed is foul, foul, foul."

– Isaac Asimov

Michael's picture

I believe the purpose of humans is to become as the creator of the universe is. To become as God is, if you will.

One caveat; Not everyone gets in the club. First you must qualify.

Note: God is not a singular entity in and of itself.

asdasmos's picture


One more because 'God is not a singular entity in and of itself.'


"Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful."

– Seneca the Younger

Hephasteus's picture

God is a strawman or a voodoo doll.

Yet when you shake it. It moves the ghost region.

It should act according to rules. But there are distractions and magicians with sleight of hand and ways of confusion and obfuscation in both heaven and earth.

However the days come when the crows land on the strawman's head, shit all over it and eat the corn anyway.



Michael's picture

Wow is right, because you are not capable of handling the truth.

When people die they are either accepted into the house, recycled to try again, or destroyed because there is no redeeming value in them.

Has nothing to do with religion. Religion is a social construct of man to explain his soundings from ancient times tainted with false presumptions.

It has something to do with Yin and Yang, where one side has over powered the other side.

The balance will be restored.


asdasmos's picture

Ok Michael, so how do you know this again?


One more for good measure.


"What can be asserted without proof can be dismissed without proof."

– Christopher Hitchens

Michael's picture

I will leave you with this without further discussion on this issue on my part. The near ending of these videos are the most important parts.

The Calling by Maxwell Igan - Full HD Version






asdasmos's picture

Did that last one get to you?

Michael's picture

OK, I'll play.

Nothing gets to me.

As I was described by others, A very thick skin this one has.

asdasmos's picture

And yet, you still seem to have bypassed my original inquiry.


"....so how do you know this again?"


And please keep the quote below in mind.


"What can be asserted without proof can be dismissed without proof."

– Christopher Hitchens

Michael's picture

I know this from experiencing the intermingling of my spirit with that of the creators.

An actual event that took place in my life.

I wish everyone could have an opportunity to experience it.

The overwhelming amount of love you feel is without possible explanation.

I'm sorry if you cannot accept this and to clarify, I have no acceptance of faith, as it is without reason.

asdasmos's picture

Listen, the onus is proof is not on the atheist. I am not procliaming anything. How do you attribute those feelings to one particular belief and/or system of beliefs?


Lets use an example. Scientology (or lets say islam/judaism/christianity if you can't take that seriously). There are ardent supporters who believe they will be saved by Xenu and just say "I know this from experiencing the intermingling of my spirit with that of Xenu (god/angels/muhammed or what have you)". There is always someone who is firm believer saying that they know this for sure.


Why should I believe you and not the imams, the priests, the rabbis or the scientologists? It is all the same.


(Edit: Can't forget all the different sects and offshoots as well)

Michael's picture

I do not prescribe to any religion of this Earth.

I must admit I was brought up Catholic. I studied all kinds of religions starting about 25 years ago when I was awakened. I'm going on 50 now.

Faith is an excuse to accept without question. It must have been invented by our overlords.

If you like to read, as I do not but whatever, a good starting point would be;

Mystery of the Ages, you can get a Free copy if you like. Really, absolutely free.


All I can really tell you is, it's a journey and it takes time. Time not being of any relevance in that vast scheme of things.





asdasmos's picture

You are unrelenting in this bible pushing huh? I do like reading, yet I will refuse to waste my time when the book begins it's first chapter on yet another interpretation of the bible. I also hope that you do know that age is not a measure of intelligence, just in case you wanted to hint at that.


Now this is an interesting one; you don't perscribe to any religion of this earth. Then what religion do you perscribe to and where is it from?


You also say you do not like to read. May I suggest a book while we are at it. I'll assume you have not read this, it is a great one to start you off.




I think the only mystery is 'why people still believe in this shit.'

Michael's picture

You are unrelenting in this bible pushing huh?

No. The Bible is just a reference, although a good one, if you will, the King James version only.

It is a very intricate puzzle to figure out.

Age is certainly a measure as our forefathers have included age in the Constitution for a reason.  The youth are not experienced enough. 

I prescribe to no religion period.

How do you think the Tea Parties came about without a leader?

How do you think the Egyptian Revolution came about with a leader?

The scholars are still scratching their heads on those two.

asdasmos's picture

I don't think either one of us will get anywhere on this with each other. You are clearly set in your ways.


I will leave you to read and re-read the king james bible version. Good luck on the puzzle.

Michael's picture

I will leave you with this.

The Internet is a collective mind of the masses aimed at the few that would prefer to keep us under their control.

We are better armed than they are.

The pen is mightier than the sword.

I would love to see them try to shut us down.

asdasmos's picture

Ok, but this has nothing to do with what we were arguing about.

RighteousRampage's picture

Not to be snarky, but I once felt an "overwhelming amount of love" after a few hits of MDMA. 


Beautiful and awakening as it was, I'm thinking that it might not be cause to rejoice in the Almighty.  Do you have any evidence of your intermingling with the creators or just the experience you felt and a hunch as to its origin.  


Btw "without possible explanation" is hard to swallow.  That said, as an agnostic, I believe in the limits of my own intuitive powers, so while the likelihoods are low, imo, that we are part of something larger, I will not discount the possibility entirely.



Michael's picture

See; String Theory. NOVA had a good show on it.

I'll get you started;

PBS NOVA - The Elegant Universe Part 1 of 7


From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
5,6-Methylenedioxy-2-aminoindane (MDAI) is a drug developed in the 1990s by a team led by David E. Nichols at Purdue University. It acts as a non-neurotoxic and highly selective serotonin releasing agent (SSRA) in vitro and produces mild entactogen effects in humans.

The chemical structure of MDAI is indirectly derived from that of the illicit drug MDA, but the alpha-methyl group of the alkylamino amphetamine side chain has been bound back to the benzene nucleus to form an indane ring system, which changes its pharmacological properties substantially.

The family of drugs typified by MDMA produce their effects through multiple mechanisms of action in the body, and consequently produce three distinct cues which animals can be trained to respond to: a stimulant cue typified by drugs such as methamphetamine, a hallucinogen cue typified by drugs such as LSD and DOM, and an "entactogen-like" cue which is produced by drugs such as MDAI and MBDB. These drugs cause drug-appropriate responses in animals trained to recognize the effects of MDMA, but do not produce responses in animals trained selectively to respond to stimulants or hallucinogens. Because these compounds selectively release serotonin in the brain but have little effect on dopamine or noradrenaline levels, they can produce empathogenic effects but without any stimulant action, instead being somewhat sedating.

Michael's picture

Food for thought.

The Stock Market is just one object of reality sucking the the life blood out of all the other market realities surrounding it.

Michael's picture

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Jacksonville Paint The Town Ron 2.0



asdasmos's picture

@Hugh_Jorgan  Wait a minute, the circular reasoning is within religion.


The bible is the word of god. how can you be sure of this?

Beacause the bible says so. why believe it?

The bible is infallible. why is it infallible? ..... because the the bible is the word of god.....


Apply to all belief systems & GTFO.

Hugh_Jorgan's picture

It's called "Free Will", pinhead. Without it we are just sock puppets.

If that is hard to understand, then put away the computer and pick up the remote, Jerseylicious is about to start.

PEOPLE need to stop blaming God for all of the lousy crap that PEOPLE do to other PEOPLE! Geddit'?

It's time to grow a brain, or maybe just have someone help you kick-start the one you have, you'll be much happier when once you do.

Sam Clemons's picture


It really comes down to personal responsibility.

“I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do.”

Robert Heinlein

asdasmos's picture

How did we sway from the argument of god to thoughts on free will?