Dispatches from Occupied Territory – The Awakening

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Dispatches from Occupied Territory – The Awakening


Cognitive Dissonance


Even though most of us come to Zero Hedge to learn, laugh, share and even rant, ultimately many of us are all alone as we cope with our awakening. While Tyler & Company do an excellent job deconstructing the insanity, rarely is our day to day emotional and psychological battering discussed. Most of us long for someone we can talk to and learn from without being judged or ridiculed. I offer the following occasional series as a small step in that direction.

This is the first in a series of fictional explorations into an individual’s awakening to the suddenly unfamiliar world around and within her while still engulfed by the day to day insanity. These short stories in letter form are intended for the more sensitive and inquisitive reader who wishes to look more deeply within and explore in depth their beliefs and perceptions and how they can cope with a world gone frighteningly mad. It is the author’s hope to accomplish this by way of an intimate and revealing first person correspondence between two long time friends as they discuss their ongoing trials, tribulations and revelations.


Dear Marie,

Please accept my apology for my tardy response to your letter of last week. While normally I’m quite prompt with my response (for I do love our conversations) the intensity of your distress set me back on my heels and I needed to pause and reflect for a bit before answering. Clearly you are experiencing tremendous loss and grief and I felt compelled to address this straight away.

But I also heard desperation in your voice and before I wrote back I needed to take a few days to reflect and remember what that chaotic period of time was like for me. You asked me to respond from the heart so to do anything less would be a disservice to both of us.

While I do have some experience with the road you’re now traveling I’m not sure how much I can help you since it’s no longer that fresh in my mind. On the other hand I do have a propensity to revisit the insanity every now and then, mostly because I tend to cling to that part of me I jettisoned so many years ago. Like a nagging itch or sharp pain emanating from a long ago amputated limb, at times it still feels as real today as it did back then.

Can you ever truly break free from something that was an integral part of you and nearly drove you insane, in fact did drive you insane? I think not, at least not quickly. In cases like this one can only hope that time truly does heal our wounds. But equally important we must also be proactive in purging the dysfunction from our mind and body.

Like you, while at the time I claimed to be willing, I really didn’t want to wake from my denial. Hell, to be perfectly honest I didn’t even know what that meant since I already thought I was wide awake. And near the end, when I could no longer remain asleep, I desperately hoped someone else would step up and absolve me from the moral obligation to walk the talk and take a stand. To this day I’m still a bit frightened by the perceived burden, which seems to never end and only grows bigger with time. Why did it have to come down to this? Why couldn’t ‘they’ be reasonable and not push it so far?

I’ve always wanted to believe people were basically good and honest. Isn’t that what everyone says is true? Sadly it is just another conditioned cultural belief dashed upon the rocky shore of our formerly sheltered life. Even after all these years, deep down inside I still wish that were true. But of course it is not, at least not for the one percent who rule the world and for the most part the next twenty percent who support them.

In fact, the ugly truth is that we all possess some measure of evil within ourselves, and part of breaking through our denial is coming to accept this in order to remove that controlling and manipulative force. We are only as sick as our deepest darkest secrets, and in this case I’m talking about those ugly truths we never want to admit even to ourselves. Especially to ourselves.

God damn it, I still don’t want to let this one go completely because to do so feels like I’m abandoning humanity itself. More likely though to let go means to leave behind what little childish naiveté I still cling to. Even now, years later, this whole thing can still bring me to tears. There are no easy answers, but that’s precisely what we really want, don’t we? The Big Lie of easy, painless, no bother answers to throw away questions, blissful ignorance in all its ugly glory.

Throw away answers


I certainly understand you being worried about your physical safety. Who would not considering the steps you might take down the road and the history of those you will oppose. And I agree that it does appear to be a daunting task you have set for yourself. That’s true for anyone contemplating this path, which explains why so few actually take the first step. But the good news is that you are not alone. I’m here by your side, along with many other veterans, sharing our strength and experience if you need it. No one should be alone during their transition from conditioned victim to independent spirit. Your rebirth will be traumatic for a while, but I promise you ultimately it will be very rewarding.

Please remember that while at times you may feel alone, there’s very little you will think, say or do that hasn’t already been experienced by someone else along the path. I’d be honored if you would accept my helping hand as we stumble down this road together. I suspect I will learn as much from you as you will from me while we both work through this lifelong process.

If I may suggest one personal practice that has served me well, the more you open your mind to the previously unthinkable, the easier it will be for you to absorb the knowledge and understanding you seek. You have the keys to a better life in your hand. All you need do is to accept that they are there and then use them.

In addition, while it is vitally important that you grieve for your loss, please don’t cry for long. Your deep sadness and sense of desperation is completely natural and understandable in the face of what appears on the surface to be a desperate situation. Essentially you are experiencing the death of who you think you are and how you see yourself in your world. The key to regaining your mental and emotional composure is to understand that your reaction is normal and you can quickly recover if you chose.

Take a moment and imagine yourself no longer feeling compelled to internalize what is strictly an external trauma controlled by others who care nothing about you or your family. This is true freedom, as opposed to the false reality indoctrinated into us from birth. Affirmation of life can now spring from within since you are no longer dependent upon external sources for your beliefs and sense of reality.

Thankfully I discovered my desperation was only as permanent as I wanted it to be. Hands down the toughest part is breaking from the old patterns of self abuse we’ve practiced since childhood. Old bad habits die hard, especially when they are embedded within our social and cultural structures. We believe we should fight this feeling of desperation, as if by experiencing it we will be consumed and never released. But in fact just the opposite is the case. It is our denial and bargaining with our newly discovered reality that makes it so painful and extended.

The awakening process can at times be excruciating and because we are taught early on to avoid anything that is uncomfortable or upsetting we instinctively and fearfully fight it tooth and nail. Unfortunately, by doing so, we make it much more agonizing and drawn out than it need be. The fear and pain is the result of our changing beliefs and perspective and the more we resist the change, the more pain there will be. It’s not so much the new that is so difficult to accept, but rather of accepting that we must let go of the old. At this point a flexible perspective is our best friend and mentor. Embrace the change and the pain will subside.

Please believe me when I tell you the pain you are feeling isn't a death sentence, but rather an affirmation of life. Remember the first Matrix movie we discussed last month, where Neo opens his eyes for the first time after being released from the Matrix cocoon and he feels terrible pain? Morpheus tells Neo his eyes hurt because he’s never actually used them to see until now. Metaphorically speaking this is precisely what is happening to you. The emotional and physical pain you feel is proof of life, not a sign of imminent death as you have been conditioned to believe. For the first time since your physical birth you are alive, no longer desensitized to a slow motion suicide.

The emotional pain and hangover you are feeling comes not only from the realization and understanding of your prior willing participation into your own enslavement, but from the sweeping depth and scope of it all. It’s not a pretty sight and never will be. But understand Marie that it takes real courage to walk this path, courage you have already demonstrated. So please do not sell yourself short simply because of your past mistakes. It’s difficult enough to deal with your own humiliation, let alone talk about it. I have no interest in being judgmental of you and neither should you. I have walked in your shoes and I still walk in your shoes. And I continue to make the same errors. Expect no less or no more from yourself.

No self abuse

We cannot reverse a life time of conditioning over night. And to think that we can is simply setting ourselves up for failure. The path is forward and the work ahead. Learn from your past, but don’t relive your mistakes simply to punish yourself. We must begin to forgive ourselves for our past, an admittedly complex but very doable task. It will be difficult to completely avoid self destructive behavior, particularly this early in your release. But you won’t heal quickly or properly if you continuously rip open your wounds in fits of self hate. The enemy is not within you Marie, it is external to you. Do not destroy your own personal refuge by being self destructive.

While it may not seem possible at this time, you are perfectly capable of simultaneously feeling extreme despair and great joy if only you will allow yourself permission to be the complex multidimensional human being you actually are rather than the emotional pawn of limited range and capacity we are trained to be from birth by our culture. Coming to grips with reality is not the end of the line, but rather a wonderful beginning to a much more rewarding life.

A very important part of you has just died, is still dying. It was something you nurtured and depended upon for a long time. One doesn’t abandon blind faith easily, regardless of how logical doing so might be. Of course you are reluctant to let it go. Who wouldn’t? But even now, through the haze of your pain, you must be able to see that concurrent with the death of your false hope another Marie is rising. Through an immaculate conception you are being reborn as a more powerful and fully formed human being. And this is just the beginning. Think of all the possibilities when your own self imposed artificial limits are removed by your own hand in the ultimate act of self empowerment.

All the false hopes, empty promises and other assorted insane baggage that you carried for decades tightly bound you to an unlivable and impossible situation. Living a life of quiet desperation, feeling powerless over conditions and events you did not create, but felt dependent upon and somehow responsible for, is no way to live, let alone exist. By freeing yourself of those false hopes you are now released from the emotional and psychological manipulations by the powers that be. Now that you have cut yourself loose from the puppet strings that tied you to the insanity, you can and will live a life free from artificially and externally induced fear and anxiety. Of this I can assure you.

Try to remind yourself on a daily basis that the only way ‘they’ can exercise control over you is to convince you that you are helpless, a powerless victim with nowhere to hide. They need you to willingly and voluntarily disarm, to not even attempt to resist or to stop doing so if you currently are. Which means in your hands and mind there resides all the power you will ever need to remain free.

Their psychological operations (psyops) have failed and now you are freeing yourself from their influence, forever if you so wish. Sure they will try to pull you back in. The entire concept behind psyops is to covertly employ multiple tentacles and pathways to subvert you, all at the same time. But all you need do to remain free is to choose not to submit and to continue unbound. Each time that you do so it becomes easier the next time you are challenged.

Now that you are releasing the false hopes that froze you like a jack lighted deer, your wounds, while severe and painful, will heal quickly. But only if you don’t tear at them in fits of rage and self disgust. Marie, you just underwent major surgery by your own hand without anesthesia. Be kind to yourself and rest from your ordeal. Give yourself permission to forgive yourself and allow the healing to take place. You would not emotionally batter a friend who was just involved in a terrible car accident, even if it was her own fault. Why then would you do so to yourself? You’re now free of that insanity. Let it go. It’s OK. You have permission to let it go.

Real freedom

We are engaged in a battle for our minds and our spiritual essence. They don’t have the capability to physically enslave all of us, so instead they must enslave our minds and convince us that submission is the only answer. There are so many other ways in which you are able to cope and prosper which you are currently unaware of and cannot see. But first you must let go of the only way you have ever tried; their way.

I ask you to have faith that soon enough you will see much more than you are blind to at the moment. Having faith has nothing to do with religion and everything to do with trust in yourself and in others. Be that fearless little toddler again, unsteady on her feet as her parents urged her forward. Let go and take those first few steps. Trust that others will be there when you fall and that falling is both natural and normal.

You are no longer an emotional hostage to be manipulated by others who care nothing of you. They have lost their power over you now that you have rejected their false promises and lies. You no longer need to take responsibility for actions you don’t support nor agree to. No longer must you internalize what is completely external in nature. You are now free to explore anywhere and everywhere because fear no longer keeps you paralyzed in the middle of the road, waiting for cars to repeatedly and endlessly run you down. 

I won’t build false hopes or grand expectations for you Marie. This awareness won't come all at once, but rather over time. And there will be residual sadness for months and possibly years to come. In fact you must be prepared to feel an occasional sense of deep loss for the false hope you carried for years. Call it nostalgia for the insanity that was once you. This is a lifelong process, not a onetime event. Manage your expectations and allow it to just happen. You can’t possibly expect yourself to run a seven minute mile after you have been confined to a wheelchair all your life. Patience practiced here will go a long way towards a healthy future you.

It’s difficult to recognize, let alone comprehend, the extent to which you've been emotionally, psychologically and physically trapped since birth in an abusive and domineering relationship with this culture, its government and various authority figures and institutions. It is nearly impossible to see what you don’t know even exists and which is still mostly invisible to your newly opened eyes. Don’t place unwarranted pressure upon yourself by expecting a rapid recovery because it just won’t happen.

You will have days when it’s one step forward, two steps back and that is OK. And there are bound to be difficulties and unexpected emotional setbacks and that too is also OK. Perfection does not exist in the real world Marie yet we have been conditioned to believe it does, but only within the endless cultural insanity you are now leaving behind. You will recover from the shock and awe assaults you were subjected to for the last 47 years, but your recovery depends upon you making a daily conscious decision to get better. This means you must take personal responsibility for your own life from this moment forward and it begins with healing yourself rather than depending upon others to heal you.

Have no doubt, your awakening process has begun and with it the ability to take back your life. You are no longer dependent upon others for your emotional, spiritual and intellectual freedom. I am delighted you reached out and told me you are coming. Now that you are here I can’t wait to explore your world with you as you grow and blossom. Welcome to the spring of your awakening.

Beside you always,





Cognitive Dissonance



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downrodeo's picture

Thanks CD, awesome as always.

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

Thanks for dropping by and leaving your mark.

Metropolis_Minx's picture


I read your short with much interest as it correlates with my own journey over the past 3 years. The duality of pain and growth through the awakening process isn't explored to any extent here on ZH -- perhaps because of its highly individualistic approach -- so I'm glad you threw down the gauntlet and shared this with us.

I agree with the self-analysis that accompanies awakening. When I first started accumulating the esoteric knowledge that was the catalyst for becoming aware, I was so overwhelmed. I walked around in a stupor unable to believe much of what I'd researched and fact-checked. Often I fluctuated between anger and fear, and I can't tell you how many times I watched The Matrix or Brazil... because my life was coming apart in those little 1's and 0's of lies and I had nothing to compare it to, (when the sieve itself is compromised, you question everything, and everything becomes schizophrenic).

Eventually, I found meditation and yoga; these practices have helped me cope and examine my life because I really feared that there was nothing real in my life. I, too, went on a journey of self-examination of my entire life to try and understand myself...especially the stuff that I wasn't particularly proud of. Confronting monsters -- both attitude and deed  -- will strengthen you. That, and suspending any kind of belief in anything until you can circle the problem and decide for yourself what you would like to emotionally and spirtually invest in. Because reality is...this economic system is nothing but a construct. An illusion. Albeit, an illusion we have vested ourselves in, but nothing is permanent.



RichardP's picture

Dick Tracy comic strip in the Sunday newpaper, mid to late 1960's; always a little comment at the end of the strip.  This one stuck with me:  If there is something you fear, you must sometime face it or perish.  If that be true, then why not now, and where you stand?.

As I've grown older, I've come to understand there is an answer to why not now, and where you stand.  Forcing people to face fears before they are psychologically ready to can destroy them.

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

I agree.....up to a point.

On the other hand, enabling them to continue to avoid their fears as well as the consequences of avoiding their fears assures MAD (Mutual Assured Destruction) is the only outcome that can't be avoided. Mixed in interested parties who benefit greatly from the enabling and you eventually have thermonuclear MAD.

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

While there are plenty of "how to" books out there, most discuss meditation or yoga or Eastern religions up front which have a tendency to scare off those new to their awakening. I wanted to write something that will discuss all the above (eventually) but with a more reader friendly approach, something that people feel more comfortable with.

I am learning that if you can't even convince the person to pick up the tools, trying to help is nearly impossible. Force feeding doesn't work. It didn't with me and it won't with anyone else. And in many ways that is what ZH is, force feeding. I wanted to try a different approach.

Thanks for the feedback.

Dulcinea's picture


Cog - While I have been reading ZH for about a year and a half, I am among the 75-80% who very seldom post.  Among other things, I find the derogatory comments about "sheeple" distasteful.  Had it not been for a serendipitous encounter with someone I knew many years ago, I would not have started on the relentless search to understand what was going on.   It’s been hard to shake off the sadness that comes with viewing events in a different light and to know who to trust.  I wonder how those “early adopters” have managed to swim against the tide for so long.  There are a hand-full of posters whose comments I hold in high regard and you are among them.  Thank you for sharing your thoughts and please keep commenting.


Cognitive Dissonance's picture

I was guilty of using the term "sheeple" early on. But as my thinking evolved I realized it was exactly the wrong thing to say for a variety of reasons. So I refrain unless I am responding to the term or explaining the term. Though I believe I have used it once or twice since then during mindless rants.

I sincerely believe that way too little is said about the emotional and psychological trauma we undergo before, during and after we begin the process of awakening. I've been talking about this for a long time here on ZH, but always from a non emotional point of view. I felt it was time to jump into the subject emotionally so that others would see that it is OK to talk about it out in the open. 

Someone's gotta go first, so it might as well be me. My ego demands it. :>)

Dr. Engali's picture


Another good read CD. Thanks

For me it was when I filed bankruptcy. I fought it tooth and nail. I gave up everything to try and save my "creditworthiness". I had worked a life time only to see it all wiped away in a matter of weeks. Then once it was done ,and I given  up everything, is when my eyes were finally opened. Completely free from the shackles of debt I am able to start over with a different world view and do things on my terms. I am blessed to have the opportunity to teach my kids to view the world from their own perspective instead of buying into a prefabricated, pre canned dream. Now if I can only wake my wife up.....


 Part of the problem of being awakened is that I now examine and question everything...even Zerohedge. Is it part of the system? An elaborate hoax to make me think I'm conscious? I don't know. Maybe I'm a schizophrenic  



tip e. canoe's picture


"If you're trapped in the dream of the other, you're fucked." 
— Gilles Deleuze

shortus cynicus's picture

For me, it was a moment when I started engineering study.

Being an engineer means to perform strictly thinking to avoid costly errors. Any error made or false assumption will be always strictly and brutal verified by reality, so it trains you to make no errors and unfounded assumptions.

After applying the same strict thinking to private live I promptly discovered that something is fishy there. An attempt to understand the reality became my hobby.

My last achievement is fuzzy logic state of mind. Instead of having one theory on some topic, I consider many of theories and choose the ones best fitting the rest of my constantly changing mindset .

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

This is what I was talking about in many of my articles when I say that to stay wedded to a static belief system is to remain in shackles. It is important to accept contrary information into your mind. You don't need to accept it or act upon it, only to allow it to exist in your reality with as much validity as you do the "truth" you currently believe in.

This is the key to expanding your universe. We will never expand what we do not believe can expand.

Thank you for your contribution to the discussion.


RichardP's picture

... to stay wedded to a static belief system is to remain in shackles.

Here's a quote from a college professor who was probably quoting someone else:

Education is the process of going from a state of cocksure ignorance to one of thoughtful uncertainty.

Knowledge builds on knowledge.  That is why a kindergarten class is different from a twelfth-grade class.  Folks here who have hit the twelfth grade and want to wake up their circle of acquaintances need to keep that in mind.  You went through quite an education process to get to the aha moment you had, whether you realize it or not.  That education process was necessary in order for you to have your aha moment and recognize it.  Understand that the same is true of others.  They are not going to be sleeping, and then suddenly get it.  They are going to be on the required learning path that they require before they can have their aha moment.  It is possible that you don't know what they need to learn in order for them to be able to recognize their aha moment.

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

This is a difficult concept for many of us to acknowledge, let alone accept. I was planning on highlighting it in a future installment of "Dispatches from Occupied Territory".

the not so mighty maximiza's picture

Good article , made my brain hurt.

WonderDawg's picture

Cog, a very thoughtful, insightful piece. As a fellow writer of fiction (amatuer, as yet) I would make a suggestion. Somewhere in those first four paragraphs, give the reader something on which to center and give perspective to the thought provoking observations of human nature that follow. As it stands, it takes too long to figure out what Marie is grieving for, what she has lost. Those of us who read ZH have a context within which to frame your observations, but even as such, I found myself skimming to try to find an anchor in there somewhere.

Thanks for your thoughts and the effort you put into this. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who struggles to balance my day-to-day living with the new perspective I'm gaining. I'm still in transition, but my awakening takes place every day. Thanks for confirming I'm not the only one who struggles with it.


whoopsing's picture

CD,read your post last night,slept on it,woke up actually feeling a little better this morning.Thank's for the effort and thank's for sharing! The red-pill journey has had me pretty stressed lately,as those around me think I'm  nut's.It's refreshing to see someone else express the turmoil that is manifest in the journey and reassure's me that I'm not alone.Thank's again

Cognitive Dissonance's picture

You are exactly the person I was hoping would read this. We spend so much time on ZH tearing the world's insanity apart that we sometimes forget it also rips us apart as well.

We must make a conscious effort to heal on a continuous basis. I felt the need to express that thought since it is rarely discussed either here or in open society.

whoopsing's picture

Well then,mission accomplished! Yet still,there is much work to be done,and daylight is burning and this task does not render result's that are concrete or guaranteed and danger's are many,risk/reward is etheral at best,and the way is not clear.I follow my heart,hoping my chip is on the right color.Thank's for your reply and continuuing inspiration. On a lighter note,the sun is out,and I have some cage's to rattle :),Have a great day!

Husk-Erzulie's picture

What a nice thread.  Thanks CD and everyone, an inspiring morning read (and listen :-)

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Shell Game's picture

Thanks for the work, CD.  The process of awakening is a strange, wonderful and horrible thing.  I've marveled at it as I've coped with all past stages and ongoing stages.  I am lucky to have met a truly wonderful group of like-minded friends on FB and have formed a private online community with them.  It's been helpful to learn from each other and support each other.  This path is incredibly lonely and takes a toll, no doubt.

What I miss most, is any semblance of like-minded peeps in my locale.  It's just a factual difficulty of being a self-reliant, constitutionalist misfit in a very liberal city..  Cheers, amigo, looking forward to your next work.


surfersd's picture

Cognitive, I too joined this website community a year and 45 weeks ago. It is amazing to think that the rabbit hole that we have gone down is far more frightening then the one Alice fell through. I agree it is best to expect the unexpected for one it comes it will be much less a surprise. It also allows for one to prepare themselves and family for the difficulties that could lay ahead. 

Tyler and ZH have done a remarkable job in ferreting out the truth and putting an analytical spin that would have shame Wall Street analysts who use to work for me back when I was on the dark side.

Still we continually need to check our assumptions and make sure that we don't get caught up in the group think that has sunk many a savvy investor. 

Your pieces are well thought out and wonderfully composed, thanks for the effort that you put into them. I will continue to use the resources found on this site to keep my mental state stable and bank account trending up (with the occasional correction).




williambanzai7's picture

"If I'm free, it's because I'm always running..." Jimi Hendrix

Freddie's picture

"I'm free, I am free and freedom tastes like reality."

The Who

ebworthen's picture


Most excellent.

Thank you CD, and Marie.


blindman's picture

here a tale from the rabbit hole.
"Business is Booming"
Wall Street's Role in Narco-Trafficking
Debt Contagion and the Global Economic Collapse
James Corbett
Nigel Farange
Posted on: June 27, 2011

Unlawful Justice's picture

The Normality of Insanity.  For those who slip into the disguise of normal behavior because they cannot tolerate the tension caused by the contradiction between the reality imposed on them and their inner world, real feeling soon cease to exist.  Instead, these people operate with ideas about feelings, not with experiences of them.  They display as their own, those feelings that have been imposed on them, and renounce their true feelings.  The saner the image of the identity they have adopted, the more successfully they will be able to perform these manipulations.  Manipulation it is, for their goal, is not self expression instead, they want to convince others that they act, think, and feel appropriately.  These are the people whom I want to expose as the truly insane ones among us. The Normality of Insanity is also the title of a book by Arno Gruen.

brokenspoke's picture

Thanks to all for the post and comments. I really enjoyed reading all of them.

Maximus Failius's picture

An open question:


At what point do you consider the sleepers a threat to the awakened?  When the sleepers happily drive the world towards the abyss at 100 mph, at what point do the awakened take steps?


As a free form thought experiment of sorts, it would seem that a hypothetical "illuminati" of awakened who worked to prevent society from being riven into the abyss would be a natural evolution of sorts.  The bankers and naked forces of greed and consumption have driven society after society over the edge.  At some point you would have to wonder if a group of enlightened individuals could act to count those base interests of the bankers, greed and consumption.

Aristarchan's picture

I understand your point, and it is well taken, but a lot of "sleepers" are just normal people trying to live their lives. In their not understanding the base reality that drives their lives lies no malice, no stupidity...just a life being lived in the way they have been taught to live it. And do not think we have the "truth," as we do not. We only have an opinion - but an important one - as it can make people think outside the limits society has put on them, so then - maybe, they can contribute ideas of their own. Enlightenment is not understanding a truth, it is understanding the limitations of truth as it is accepted.

Maximus Failius's picture

excellent points, just exploring a thought pattern.

Ponzi Unit's picture

Before enlightenment chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment chop wood, carry water, buy PMs and try to tell your friends what's happening, even when they think you are wasting your time on irrelevancies or worse.

CustomersMan's picture


     And so, complete the circut. Take this a step further, and finally discuss the truth about 9/11/01 and the Israeli's who did it along with their sub-contractors, the NeoCons and their friends in the U.S. Government along with ICTS and the other Jewish run companies involved in the tools they used to pull it off.


      Let it all sink in and then ask yourself, "Are you going to let the 3,000 murdered Americans die for nothing? and if so are you ready to be false-flagged again?


      They are the enemy, and if they have a chance, they will do it again. Just like the U.S.S Liberty was followed by other  planned disasters like 9/11/01.

I Got Worms's picture

Understanding and accepting 9/11 was the most painful part of my journey. I bought the lie hook, line and sinker for 6 years. Their programming runs deep. But it's like those weird pictures where, if you stare at it just the right way, a hidden image pops out. It's so damn easy to see now. But when I talk to others about it, it's like I'm outside on a clear day telling someone the sky is blue, and we're looking up at the same thing, except they keep arguing that it's red. I just think to myself, "Jesus, how can they not see this??"

Ponzi Unit's picture

Justin Raimondo does a good job of tracing the Israeli link to 9/11:



mkkby's picture

Our own CIA and FBI knew about 9/11 ahead of time.  The senior people and the white house kept it quiet, and prevented the authorities from stopping it.  It's not surprising that the Mossad would have known too.  It doesn't mean Israel was complicit.  Maybe they were even frustrated that nobody would do anything about it, just as our own FBI agents were frustrated nobody would listen to them.

The conspiracy was that our own gov and military industrial complex wanted a war, and were happy to get the excuse.  Whether they actually helped engineer it is still debatable.

Maximus Failius's picture

If i was a single person i would walk dive into the rabbit hole with abandon.  But As a father it seems that i must find a way to exist in both worlds simultaneously.  My spouse has no interest in the rabbit hole as she is fully aware that it would shatter her current perception, and she has decided that she is not  interested in that journey.  So I end up in both worlds at once.  My daily life is lived in what has become the "desert of the real", an alien walking in what is now a foriegn world.

Yet that is not the hard part.  As a father i have yet to even grasp how i raise a young child as a free mind without causing "undue" dislocation from those he interatcs with every day.  How do you even begin to raise a child as a free mind when you essentially have to consantly explain what a teacher or adult has told as fact is really a half truth.  And further that you have to explain to the child that th adults will try and tell them that they are wrong / confused?


As challenging as personal enlightenment can be at times, i savor the exploration and would never want to change my path into the rabbit hole.  Yet i constantly struggle with the question of how to be the best father i can.  So far my approach is to encourage exploration of everything and to "question everything".  Find your own answers no matter who tells you what the "right" answer is, even if it is dad. cvx               


I would be very curious to hear how others may have approached this as a father.

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Maximus Failius said:  I would be very curious to hear how others may have approached this as a father.  End quote.

I don't want to teach you what to think so much as I want to teach you how to think.

Do the facts support the conclusion?

'But I don't know what all the facts are'.  Then you don't have to make up your mind; you don't have to decide what the conclusion is.  You can leave your mind in neutral.

That doesn't cover all situations, but it covers a lot of them.  As my daughter was learning things, I would sometimes give the wrong answer when she asked a question that I knew she already knew the answer to.  'No daddy.  That's not right.  This is the correct answer."  This transaction did several things.  Caused her to actually "listen" to my response, because I might give the wrong answer.  Caused her to not automatically accept everything I said; rather she matched my comments against what she knew to be the truth; gave her an ego boost and confidence in herself because she knew the answer and daddy didn't; gave me a window into what she actually knew and what her thinking processes were.  You can customize this approach to meet your own needs.

Odd thing is, my wife never got it.  If she was present when I gave a wrong answer to our daughter's question, my wife would jump in and correct me before my daughter had a chance to.  Deprived daughter of a chance to demonstrate/exercise her emerging thinking ability.

blindman's picture

you love the children
then they have something
when all else is gone
you teach them to love
so they can live

Orly's picture

Just be yourself and believe as you believe.  The worst thing you can do is try to be something you're not or pretend like you believe something you don't.

Don't be a phony.  Believe me when I say your kids are a lot smarter than you think.

Best of luck to you!


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I am not saying this is a solution to your dilemma. It caused me many problems, some that can never be smoothed over.

But I wound up divorcing over this issue when my son was 9 months old and fighting for (and winning) joint custody but primary residence with me. Since my ex wife was content to remain within the dream I made a deal with her. I would give her enough money each month to remain half in the dream. She would have to supply the other half herself. In return I got to create a new dream for my son.

That was 24 years ago. It was a very bumpy road and the most difficult thing I have ever done. But my son has come through the other side a very aware, naturally skeptical (but not socially disabled by it) and very proactive and motivated. And it only took 19 years of my life devoted to his future. It was time well spent in my view since I did have something to do with bringing him into this world.

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Cog, you just made a very important point about scepticism.....one must NOT allow it to stunt them socially. I know that because I am very susceptible to allowing my own scepticism to drive me into a funk. Being deliriously happy has never driven anyone insane, unchecked scepticism has. Be happy that your are smart enough to be a sceptic, but do not allow the darkness potentially attendant to that frame of mind rob you of humanity. I guess that is why I jokingly rant sometimes.....trying to use humor to absolve my own momentary pain.

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We must each choose our own path.  As you said earlier in the comments " The sleepers sleep and those who are ready to wake do so".  My point of view is that you cannot force someone to wake up and expect pleasant consequences.  My choices and my path do not dictate that i can only have a relationship with an awakened spouse.  My awakening began shortly after we got married.  While it has presented the occasional speed bump, my personal enlightenment has not changed my decision to commit myself to my spouse. 


My spouse was a bit skeptical about some of the aspect of our sons education that i adamently pusjed for, but she has become very supportive as she has seen him explode in curiosity and rapidly begin to surpass his peers in adaptability and independent capabilities.


We are fortunate to have access to a great montessori school that goes a long way in avoiding the modern indoctrination massivly prevelant in public education.  I feel that o have found a balance in my marriage but am still struggling with how to prepare my son for the world.as he will encouter it.


Perhaps one difference for me may be that through my personal enlightenment i have been able to help some of my family on both sides avoid he full impact of the financial maelstorm we are currently in the middle of.  As a result there seems to more of a middle ground between my "extreme" views and the rest of my family as they have [provent heir worth on more then one occasion.

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I'll just toss this one in here for the halibut.




Five to one. Mr. Morrison addresses the issue, perhaps from a slightly different angle.